I live with pain and agonizing sensations all day. As if my pain is not enough because “I got used to it”, I get new kinds of pain every once in a while. I don’t have health insurance, am unemployed (I’m trying the best I can, 2 days ago I went to job interview in agonizing pain), free healthcare doesn’t care about me and were unethical towards me multiple times, family members are angry about me and one of my parents did beat me because I was correcting them that my pain is actually physical and not psychological and that I’m trying to get a job even is so much pain. Everyone hates me and I hate everything.

I’ve tried everything that’s in my reach. I don’t get the support that I need. So I don’t see other options… I really didn’t want to die. But at this point… it’s so much chaos. I carry it in my body.

Because I get all kinds of crazy symptoms in my body, the thought of death is all time in my head. I don’t have the money to do exams, like what even. I got so stressed that I almost collapsed.

  • @[email protected]OPEnglish
    1•12 days ago
    • Yes, I’ve been removing some possible inflammatory foods from my diet
    • I’ve taken dexketoprofen trometamol, tramadol, pregabalin, and many others I don’t even remember the name. Like, they helped somewhat, some had side effects and left me with more pain, stopped working, so on… I have so many different symptoms that’s hard…
    • I think this could be really helpful. I believe some DNA mutation or or whatever happened in me due to infection. But I don’t really have the money to do it (here in Brazil everything is expensive for us), and I don’t think free healthcare will do it for me. Like, it’s already 5 months I’m waiting for exams and specialists… But I will try to search about it.

    Thank you for your support

    • @just_another_personEnglish
      2•12 days ago

      Well they have tests online you could get. I’m not sure if “don’t really have money” means some, or “zero”. That’s why I was putting the option out there. These tests ordered in labs are very cheap now, so your national healthcare may actually cover it. It’s worth asking about.