So I got into organic farming. I bought an expensive earth cutter and actually got to rent a farming plot - about 100 m2. All that was last year. I still have that farming plot but to keep it, I have to keep paying for it as well as actually be there and care for crops. I still want to do it but I just can’t bring myself to do it? And WTF do I do with the earth cutter? I live in a flat in the city ROFL

I also recently got into game development. I actually dove right into the basics and actually began writing code and functions that work for game prototypes. As in not only did I first follow tutorials, but I made my own shit by just looking up documentation. I still want to do it, but… IDK, I just need a hook to go back but I just won’t? And it saddens me, I really want to continue on some ideas I have but its too much.

GAAAH.

And I have a carpenter’s work bench coming soon and all these projects I want to do. But WTF will I do.

  • AnanääsEnglish
    5•3 days ago

    I got a (old) sailing boat a few years back. At least I wasn’t completely alone in that business, but the others weren’t exactly the most responsible people either. We sold the boat after a year, and I feel that I dodged a bullet by a narrow margin. I have only some experience sailing and couldn’t go by myself, also winter storage and things related to that are quite the hassle and it seemed that it would end up being my responsibility to sort those, among other things, out in the future.

    Now I’ve got a motorbike and like with that boat I was at first very interested in learning stuff related to it, maintenance and everything, but it seems that I always need someone else to inspire me to keep going. Now I have to rely on my partner to take initiative. I’m totally happy fixing it and enjoy riding a lot, but can’t f*cking do it alone and that annoys me so much. I feel like a failure for not being able to “follow my dreams” without someone holding my hand. I’d like to get a van to build it into a small place for myself, but I know I couldn’t go anywhere by myself.

    Now that I’ve realised this novelty-seeking tendency I try to not get too excited about new things (or at least make any investments) before I’m sure the inspiration will last. But then again I need something to be excited about to keep going. But to keep excitement going I need someone to share it with.

    Maybe we need to collectively buy an island and establish a neurospice nation where we could arrange work and stuff so that there’s enough rotation to keep things interesting and allow people to hyperfocus on those things that they enjoy but let them swap when needed XD

    • DominusOfMegadeusEnglish
      3•3 days ago

      I mean, there’s a whole host of reasons we should get an island, and make our own country while we’re at it, so I’m totally on board.

    • @[email protected]OPEnglish
      2•3 days ago

      I completely understand what you mean!

      Personally, I believe that having an enthusiastic project partner or someone to share hobbies and routines with would greatly motivate me to pursue my interests more actively. While I do have a partner, she is quite content with her current lifestyle and doesn’t share the same enthusiasm for exploring new activities. She enjoys her role as a parent to our child, which I also cherish, but I often find myself wanting to engage in various activities that she isn’t as interested in.

      One strength of having a partner like her is that she keeps me grounded and helps me stay balanced, reminding me of how people with more normative lifestyles approach things, which can be different from my more eccentric and active tendencies.

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      I am all in on making that Island dream come through lol!