So I got into organic farming. I bought an expensive earth cutter and actually got to rent a farming plot - about 100 m2. All that was last year. I still have that farming plot but to keep it, I have to keep paying for it as well as actually be there and care for crops. I still want to do it but I just can’t bring myself to do it? And WTF do I do with the earth cutter? I live in a flat in the city ROFL

I also recently got into game development. I actually dove right into the basics and actually began writing code and functions that work for game prototypes. As in not only did I first follow tutorials, but I made my own shit by just looking up documentation. I still want to do it, but… IDK, I just need a hook to go back but I just won’t? And it saddens me, I really want to continue on some ideas I have but its too much.

GAAAH.

And I have a carpenter’s work bench coming soon and all these projects I want to do. But WTF will I do.

    • @[email protected]English
      3•3 days ago

      I’ve reframed it as less hell and more it is what it is.

      I’ve decided I have no control over what’ll I’ll be interested in in the future and so I just go with the flow.

      If I frame things as I must keep doing this to justify the purchase that’s a recipe for disaster. But if I frame it as I’m all about the journey then it not an issue to stop doing something and I might come back to it later.

      Plus as someone who spent so long self medicating with drugs, I’ve spent more money than I care to think about on less constructive hobbies.

      For those interested my latest hobby is rock climbing, although I tore a tendon and not been in almost a month so hope I still have the bug after physio. I’m back into Factorio too and want to start camping in the warmer weather.