Normal people can just DO this without medication? I can sit here and listen to music without feeling the need to be hyper-tensed and aware of everything around me? Why does my heartbeat feel calm? Why am I not on edge?
I was recently reading a book on sanitation conditions in Stalinist Russia, and it made me think about how many ‘normal’ things I take for granted in my day-to-day life that simply were not the norm for the majority of human history. I guess this is the reverse - something which other people take for granted, but I’ve only just received, and it’s like the Holy Grail in my hands.
I often forget that I can just do that. Like sit in a room and listen to music and not do anything else. I feel like I have to constantly be doing something, even if its just reading.
When I first check out, it’s just… refreshing. Trying to do it more.
Also, what’s the name of that book? Seems like an interesting read
“The Hazards of Urban Life in Late Stalinist Russia: Health, Hygiene, and Living Standards, 1943–1953”