Nice. Same here. AuDHD at 29. Got a chance to try out methylfenidate. Trying 27mg slow release now. The lower dose of 18mg did nothing, but fucked me up after a week of trying out.
So far so good. Gonna warn you though, it still takes work, but it’s easier to “just do stuff.” It’s as if I have a gas pedal now, instead of a button to move the car. As if I can choose to work at a lower rpm. Running on idle is possible now, and being idle (such as waiting 15min for the train) doesn’t bother me. As if I can choose what to allocate working memory to. Allowing me to manage my dyslexia and high associative thinking better.
I also notice satiety and thirst. Something I didn’t feel before.
I can quit stop doing “fun” stuff and switch to doing “less fun” stuff. Going from playing a video game, to studying! It never worked this way. I was only ever able to start study in the morning. Once I caved into gaming, it was game over.
Reading is hard, but I am managing to get myself to start reading. I seem to be able to do stuff even when I don’t “feel” like doing it. Like laundry! Still hard, but not impossible.
Does nothing for my forgerfulness though, and the mental hyperactivity isn’t zen. So the dose may be still too low for me. I was only able to experience “the zen” with 10mg fast working on the testing day. But the rebound caused me to experience something akin to a stroke and pass out for 5min and wake up in confusion.
I haven’t yet. But just got diagnosed AuDHD at age 29, should be getting on a stimulant this week and I think that will help a lot.
Nice. Same here. AuDHD at 29. Got a chance to try out methylfenidate. Trying 27mg slow release now. The lower dose of 18mg did nothing, but fucked me up after a week of trying out.
So far so good. Gonna warn you though, it still takes work, but it’s easier to “just do stuff.” It’s as if I have a gas pedal now, instead of a button to move the car. As if I can choose to work at a lower rpm. Running on idle is possible now, and being idle (such as waiting 15min for the train) doesn’t bother me. As if I can choose what to allocate working memory to. Allowing me to manage my dyslexia and high associative thinking better.
I also notice satiety and thirst. Something I didn’t feel before.
I can quit stop doing “fun” stuff and switch to doing “less fun” stuff. Going from playing a video game, to studying! It never worked this way. I was only ever able to start study in the morning. Once I caved into gaming, it was game over.
Reading is hard, but I am managing to get myself to start reading. I seem to be able to do stuff even when I don’t “feel” like doing it. Like laundry! Still hard, but not impossible.
Does nothing for my forgerfulness though, and the mental hyperactivity isn’t zen. So the dose may be still too low for me. I was only able to experience “the zen” with 10mg fast working on the testing day. But the rebound caused me to experience something akin to a stroke and pass out for 5min and wake up in confusion.
It’s an alien experience.