AKA how are you surviving it?
Mom and her partner are going to a reunion with some neighbours, get drunk and whatever and invited me but i won’t go. I know how those parties are and I hate being surrounded by alcoholic ignorant people and people I don’t know… My little bro (16 yrs old) goes out with his friends. My other bro that is 5 years younger than me (he’s 29 years old) Will pass the NYE with her fiance and her family in their families restaurant.
So I’ll stay in my room alone again. There’s no reason to go outside. The stupid fireworks won’t let me sleep anyways so I’ll play Xbox and watch some p*rn maybe. I know it can be seen as pathetic for some, but that’s my reality and I can’t do anything about it.
To be clear, you can. Being in their presence for half a day wouldn’t cause you to fall over dead. You aren’t incapable of doing it.
What you mean is that you won’t. You are refusing to do it. You aren’t incapable, you just really don’t want to.
And look, I get it. It’s easier to tell yourself that spending a few hours with someone you don’t like is literally impossible. That way, you can’t be faulted for not doing it. You wouldn’t be responsible for your own faults or failures if the things that would fix it were literally impossible. It’s a comforting lie.
But just because you want something to be true doesn’t make it so. You are, in fact, capable of spending a small handful of hours with someone you don’t like. Your world won’t end, and afterwards you can go back to sitting on your bed, playing vidya and jerking off. But you’ll go back to that one step closer to self improvement.
The question is, what choice are you going to make. And make no mistake, it is a choice. Your hand isn’t forced. And whichever way you go, that was your decision. Not something the world forced on you.