Some time ago, the one named mindseal (I only encountered as nefandi) told me an analogy that I had been contemplating ever since.
I’m sad to have forgotten the whole context and fidelity of the details, but I remember the gist of it. I found it inspiring and empowering to consider.
He said something along the lines of “Even a leaf obscures galaxies, and a mouse may shatter a star if it squeaks with enough sincerity.”
I’m sure I misquoted it, so I spruced it up with my own imagination here.
Anyway, wow. The perspicacity alone has accompanied me for some time now. More than that, though, learning that sincerity is powerful.
Truly, it is powerful.
I want to learn more. Would you share some wisdom with me?
Sure. I think I’ll describe a part of the core phenomena I’m referring to and then give an example. I think most people have a great deal of condemnation/judgment of aspects of themselves and others, often unconsciously. This unconscious self-condemnation results in (usually) unconscious urges to attain/achieve/be something to avoid the self-punishment/self-condemnation. If such a person can first realize they have such a split, and practice self-kindness and self-love, they can slowly free themselves from this self-hating self-torment and learn self-trust. I think what I’ve described is a issue for a lot of people, not just at the conventional level. I think what we might call insanity would start to approximate this feeling in the realm of magick.
So, this binding splitting attachment to things is motivated in a desire for self-love, but a restricted willingness to only give it if you achieve something you think you need to be worth being happy. This constrains a person to squeeze themselves into attaining these feats they think they need that don’t make them happy. By unbinding that willingness for self-love, you can free yourself of such limitations.
More concretely, I’m still working through this in many ways as it is a core element of my own personality (I was raised by a narcissist in a cult-like environment). But the more familiar with it I am the more I see it in others, including perniciously in the idea of “reason/will/choice” as a motivating factor instead of emotion. That is a dangerous and widespread idea leading to extreme self-ignorance/delusion and consequential self-destruction.
So a concrete example for me would be a self-love attachment to being vegan/anticonsumerist/anarchist (or more broadly a perfectly moral person). As a result of this I sacrificed a lot of personal happiness and lifestyle options. In fact, it felt as if there were no other options on how to live my live and live with myself. But once I realized I can love myself no matter my moral attitudes, and started practicing that, and I don’t have to be anything other than true to my own heart, I was able to slowly reflect on whether those commitments really matched my own emotional needs and respond to that in a way that gave me more happiness due to the greater flexibility.
That’s a conventional example, but I’m convinced the same idea can apply to magical manifestation, and even to psi based phenomena like remote viewing, telekinesis, and precognition.
Originally commented by u/AesirAnatman on 2021-09-14 08:05:35 (hcqurjy)