I don’t mean actively trying to commit suicide or being careless and stupid, you know, just feeling like if I woke up tomorrow and said to me, “Oh hey, like, you died last night” I wouldn’t care.
Is this something serious? Should I seek help or consulting?
Then I would say maybe. Even more so if you ruminate on the idea often. Apparently fantasizing about not wanting to exist is a form of ideation.
Other than the typical “talk to a professional” i dont what else to say. I straight up have suicidal ideation where I consider offing myself every so often, depending on my situation. Not the best way to live, wouldnt recommend it.
If you do decide to see a therapist and they were to push antidepressants on you I would say be really careful, in my case it made my suicidal ideation 10 times worse, and after that it didnt do much else for me. And it’s hard to tell that it’s the drugs that are affecting your mental state because the effects are delayed.