• @EtherWhack
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    138 months ago

    It’s human nature to have a subconscious reservation of trust of things you hold private, especially when you faced ridicule, maltreatment, or punishment (or anything else potentially traumatic) for it. This mistrust can be a huge hurtle to get over…

    As someone who was stuck on different antidepressants most of their childhood because the shrinks thought it was the right/only move for my differences. Never having any sizable improvement and any new doctors would just prescribe a different set of antidepressants without taking a step back to see it was just hindering me. I eventually lost faith in them and stopped with the meds.

    Once they were out of my system, my emotions, a part of me that was muffled by them, started coming back, and my mood became more stable as it wasn’t subdued like a caged animal anymore.

    It was only until one doctor actually listened for once and decided to try a different approach; rather than using something that that slowed NT re-uptake, give something that sped up it’s production. After doing this, a lot of difficulties became much easier to overcome.

    Going through a scenario like this can make one tend to “prepare for the worst,” with a innate fear of saying or doing the wrong thing and backtracking on progress, at least until enough trust is built up.