and i have screensavers off

Well, my screensaver tonight was quite unpleasant. I was back in school, about to go into an exam, but I couldn’t find any of my materials, I hadn’t done any work, I didn’t have any notes, and I couldn’t even remember what the topic was. I was panicking the whole time, waiting for someone to come in and call my name, all while desperately trying to figure out what the fuck was going on, looking in my bag for anything that might help, trying to find any exam related papers or files on my (apparently brand new) laptop.

Luckily I woke up and remembered that I’m not in school any more and haven’t been for years.

Except the brain doin cleanup and processing and whatnot during sleep.

why don’t I feel saved

Never give up on your screensavers

People with aphantasia: My monitor just turns off.