For years I’ve used Video Games to take up the hurt in my life and I’ve been ignoring it. The Games I play are normally quite repetitive such as Minecraft, CS2 and Fortnite. My goals inside of these games change often, sometimes I push for getting as many Achievements as possible or maybe I just want to get really good at the game, even know I’m not recording, streaming or have no plans to join a E-Sports league making these are waste of my time.

I’ve recently achieved over 10k hours across the games I play, some say that’s not much but I always remind myself that not only does Minecraft not track the amount of time I play on it but I also don’t just play the games but research the hell out of them. The other part of my time that I’m not playing games is spend up watching TV Shows and Movies such as Superhero ones (Loki Season 2 has been releasing and I’ve been enjoying that) and Upload is a great series that I’ve been watching but these also seem like a way to escape my reality.

It’s to the point that through my adult life (I’m 21) I’ve had a few relationships and it seems like I put gaming before the relationship especially if I feel the relationship is going a little bad and believe this is one of the key reasons that some of my relationships have ended in the past.

I’ve tried to go full “Cold Turkey” previously and I feel that this isn’t the best route to go, especially as I do still feel that Video Games are a good relaxant for my life but I would like to get my life on track for once by replacing the time I used to spend on Video Games (Or at least 90% of it) on doing my company that I’ve been telling myself for years that I was going to create.

My company that I’ve been wanting to create is a Video Editing one where I can edit my own as well as other peoples videos for online platforms. One of the reasons I have come to terms with the possible Gaming Addiction I have is because I’ve been sitting on Editing a Video for the past 2+ months and it’s been waiting for me to edit. My goal is to try and edit this video before the 7th of November giving me just about a week to get it all complete.

I feel that my best chance of getting anything done in my life, at least business wise (to begin with) is by reducing the hours I play of video games or at minimum timing myself and giving myself ‘work breaks’ making me have to work per amount of time / games I play of each of my games, this then may turn into longer periods where I may want to work instead of game or may get to the stage that I reward myself by gaming in the evening after finishing work.

If you have any suggestions of how to fix myself and have best of both worlds then feel free to say, sorry this is a long post its been on my mind for a while and I needed to get it out in writing to hopefully do something.