tfw you have a few months left in savings and finally get around to looking up disability and it’s all “we’ll get around to it in 6-9 months.”

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  • @[email protected]English
    37•6 months ago

    Yes, every day.

    The only hopes are:

    • getting enough adrenaline from stress to end the cycle (super harmful in the long run)
    • completely let it go no matter the importance & hope that randomly without thinking about it and doing something else (perhaps being stuck in the same loop but for another topic) I’ll just be ok to immediately drop everything and just start executing the first step … then it usually goes on ok after that
    • get someone to help me, then think about how much of a drag Im being on their personal life, alienate them “for their own good and happiness”, have a copy of them in my mind for years to come hopefully the example will sometimes magically help me with some current issue
    • @[email protected]OPEnglish
      21•6 months ago

      getting enough adrenaline from stress to end the cycle (super harmful in the long run)

      That’s me! I’m pretty sure my baseline cortisol levels could kill a small animal. Also pretty sure sustaining that level has done permanent damage to my body.

      • @[email protected]English
        17•6 months ago

        Yes.
        And there is absolutely no way a neurotypical person can comprehend that.

        That’s why a crisis (a “stressful situations” by normies definitions) calms us down and/or we continue to function normally. And normies just panic. And even when it’s obvious to us what is best to do next, we have to wait for them to calm tf down to even understand what we are saying. But by then the advantage is lost.

        (“Oh, so we are going with the plan I proposed and detailed in an email last week but this time is “your” idea?” … :|)

    • @dohpaz42English
      14•6 months ago

      One thing I’ve found that helps “motivate” me to do an undesired task is to find another, more undesirable, task that needs to be done and convincing myself it needs to be done immediately. Then I avoid the new task, and do the original task instead.

      60% of the time it works 100% of the time.

      • @[email protected]English
        7•6 months ago

        Yeah, task switching in general kinda works for me sometimes, it makes no difference to me how (un)desired the task is. Even tasks I enjoy are hard for me.

          • @SzylerEnglish
            3•6 months ago

            My phone has literally died many times because I wouldn’t plug it in, with the charger cable *being within reach! *

        • @dohpaz42English
          5•6 months ago

          Yes, I suffer from that too. It can be as small as using the bathroom or getting another drink, to putting my woodworking hobby on indefinite hold.

          If I complete one task in a day, I feel accomplished.