Apologies if this veered too much off topic. I’ve been kicking this around for a week or two, and felt the need to add recent events and post.
It’s 5am, I haven’t eaten in 12 hours, had anything substantial to drink in about 8, have been sitting on the toilet for over an hour, and instead of doing something about any of those things I’m editing a comment to fix a typo.
When I was young I was a news junkie. Like, watching the local network news for an hour, then the world news. Every weeknight. This turned to news radio as an adult, especially since it was the only way to get traffic info at the time (yes, I am old). I cut this out save sports for many years, before there even was doomscrolling lol. Never had any social media to speak of for the longest time. Even when I joined Reddit about 10 years ago, I was just there for the niche hobby subs and avoided /all and /top like the plague.
Speaking of… when Covid hit it became fairly imperative to keep up with events. And it came right on the heels of getting screwed on a house purchase, and precipitated the work situation going from bad to worse. Felt like every time I tried to take a step forward I got a baseball bat to the kidneys, while the outside world made me question if the boneheaded decisions made in horror movies were really all that unrealistic.
The ironic part is that I had serious trouble finding decent mental health treatment while paying out the ass for insurance, since all it seemed to cover was pill mills and unqualified social workers (which I then had to further cough up dough for). So when I had a breakdown this past winter I was pretty much hopeless. But somehow, the Evil Socialist Freeloader Plan (aka Medicaid) let me hit the freaking lottery for both group and individual therapy (unhelpful PHP detour notwithstanding). I feel like I’m making actual progress.
The catch: in a month or two I’m either going to be homeless, or spending all of the spoons doing something I’ll hate in exchange for maybe enough little slips of paper that prove I’m allowed to exist (or, ya know, sleep). Either way, the clock is ticking, and the doc is slow-walking my meds. Meanwhile I’m selling off personal items to pay bills, and come November there may not be a functioning SSA to process my disability claim that that I still haven’t fully filled out because of executive dysfunction and the work questions being triggering.
Tick tock, tick tock.
paralysis intensifies
Came here on this meme just to say the only reason I am seeing this is opening up kbin.run on a different browser, so I am not automatically logged in and thus able to avoid this. Learned my lesson, only log in on the usual browser for kbin. But I logged in to say this, even if it gets me downvoted to hell, because it is on topic and might help other people with ADHD.
Another thing that I recommend to cut out, if you see it taking your life, ironically, is communities just like this. I lost so many hours of my life doomscrolling on other ADHD peoples’ vent posts making myself more and more miserable about how hopeless things look for them, too, just like me, how do we get out of the misery rut? I am still not perfect and still struggling, but blocking or curating this kind of community away helped me. Reading fellow ADHD people sharing my sentiments and worries does not make me feel any better, it is just, for me, unhealthy cycling of the same damn hopeless ideas.
If reading ADHDMemes helps you, by all means keep it. Not everyone is going to have the same reaction as me, for some I imagine it would be helpful to see this community.
But if you are like me and need to see this and you need some kind of push to take any action (it took me years to kick doomscrolling, and as evidenced by my willingness to click on this post it is still tempting, which is why I have to curate these communities away), block this. Block the meme communities for your other conditions if you have any. Heck, even the main community for it, if it is more vent-y than solution-y. Or do like I have done (I am kind of oversensitive and there are so many iterations of communities that tend to post doom-y content) and keep your feed to just Subscribed stuff, none of which can involve doom-y stuff. I waste far less time on Reddit-equivalents and Reddit thanks to me doing this. Now I waste it elsewhere, but at least it is something I enjoy and not something that makes me even more stressed and unhappy.
That sucks that you’re dealing with all of that. It must be really tough. I wish you the best of luck finding decent mental health treatment, and I really really hope your situation improves.
Thanks, I appreciate it.