First of i am very sex repulsed. It triggers some trauma (i am very sure i am ace anyway tho).

Seeing people sexualising themselfs or others is the worst for me. it can literally end the day for me, because i have to stay in bed for the rest of the day trying to deal with the emotions. So naturally i try to avoid that. all my friends are very suportive. On the internet i obviously dont go to places where such things might be. today i way watching roadrage videos. should be save enough right? ofc not. because some people gotta but sexualising content literally everywhere. The otherday i looked for chess openings. found a guide who ??? sexualised the chess pieces???

i am just tired. nsfw already has the majority of internet traffic. cant i just have some small portion where i can feel save?

I know i am an extreme case but it just feels so darn isolating. i am scared of joining any discord server. i used to my partner check subreddits (thankfull lemmy seems to be less bad in this regard) before joining. the internet gives potential for so much community especially for an introvert like me. but beeing so very sex repulsed locks me out of those communitys right away.

Thanks for reading. I dont think there is help or a solution. I just needed to rant to someone.

  • @[email protected]OPEnglish
    4•4 months ago

    ill link this short video, since it is more well put then i ever could: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2IrG68YTMjo

    I dont ask for much. literally just wanna follow my sfw hobbies without beeing forced to confront my inner demons every day. I agree that i should “get over it”. but maybe you dont realise the scope. this is at best a years long therapy process that in the end might never pay off.

    And quite frankly are you also telling war veterans to get a grip, because people like fire work? are you telling parents to stop crying about child protection because if we dont sexualise cartoon characters online we would cease to exist?

    i dont even ask to be helped i just wanted to rant. i am aware that 99% of people dont give a damn about trauma. why be so confrontational towards me?

    • @blahsayEnglish
      -1•4 months ago

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      • @[email protected]OPEnglish
        4•4 months ago

        why did i waste so much time dealing with my mental health when i could just instead go to lemmy where strangers can tell me how easy it is to deal with. Seriously is changing persoective so hard? as said before i dont even ask for help, or for anyone to change their lives. yet people get so pissed of by the notion that hypersexualisation might be hurtful to one (1) person. (it hurts more but in this thread i feel to be alone on this side)