Hey everyone, I wanted to share my experience with you all.

It’s strange you know. I stopped smoking in november 2018. After a lot of tries. But there’s a context. I was smoking like 20 cigarettes and like 15 joints per day for 10 years.

I had surgery (unrelated to tabacco/weed), and the surgeon told me : “There are two roads ahread of you. Either you continue smoking like you do and we can already book another surgery in 6 months. Or you stop and there’s 50% chance you won’t need to come back”.

I was ready and stopped 2 weeks later. Weed and tobacco at the same time. I had surgery. That surgery had a major impact on my everyday life. I could barely walk for a whole year and had to take very strong painkillers every day. Had to stop sports, and had trouble going to work in constant pain. On top of that, I started vaping and consumed incredible amounts of sugar to cope with frustration.

In the end, I did it. But as a consequence to withdrawal and forced immobility… I went from 70kg to 90kg.

And today, more than 4 years later, I still struggle to lose those kgs. And it’s so frustrating, and I’m so estranged with my new body, I started again smoking from times to times. Still resisted the urge to buy a pack, but for example, when I’m waiting for a train, I ask people for a cigarette. I constantly think about my weight.

That’s… a weird feeling, and I’m not sure how to deal with it. I used to do a lot of Martial Arts. Now I’m learning Tai-Chi and I love that. Doing a but of jump rope once or twice a week. Paying major attention to what I’m eating.

Well, here I am now. It all seems a bit ironic. But it’s not all so dark. Yesterday, I picked an appointment with a dietetician. Hopefully, it will help me in this complicated moment.

I wish you all good luck !