• palordrolap
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    125 days ago

    One of the reasons I rarely took myself off to other places in the world for a holiday* is because the thing I need a break from is being me and I don’t even know if that’s possible.

    Initial past tense because I can’t afford to go anywhere now. The couple of times I could afford to go away and did so, I didn’t really enjoy myself. Took a lot of photos that I never look at.

    Literally the best part of my last holiday was the short runway take-off of the aeroplane on the way there. First time I’d ever flown. Massive acceleration and into the air. Total rush.

    Spent a lot of my time looking forward to the flight home as a result, but the runway turned out to be longer and it was a disappointment.

    There’s a meaning in that somewhere. Maybe.

    * British for “vacation”.

    • shrugs
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      24 days ago

      Life is pain. I have felt the same in the past. Maybe Buddhism could help to understand. It did for me.

      from https://www.worldhistory.org/Four_Noble_Truths/:

      Life is suffering
      The cause of suffering is craving
      The end of suffering comes with an end to craving
      There is a path which leads one away from craving and suffering
      
      • palordrolap
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        24 days ago

        The true nirvana is death.

        You could call it, or limit it to death of ego if you want to remain alive, but remaining alive for a Buddhist reduces to a craving, nonetheless. For nirvana.

        There are also biological cravings that cannot be ignored no matter how enlightened you become because of the fundamental nature of the creatures we are.

        Food must be consumed. Breath taken. Waste excreted. Sleep slept. One might even argue that the search for any meaning is but the evolved desire to survive, only interpreted differently.

        The only reason I remain on this deity-forsaken rock is that I believe that ending my own suffering would only amplify the suffering of those who - for their own reasons - care about me.

        If I take attachments in the meantime, it’s merely for my own amusement as I await the opportunity for true nirvana. Shedding them would make the wait less bearable.

        Bear in mind that this is my path. Yours may differ.

        • shrugs
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          34 days ago

          You haven’t ended suffering if you still crave something, in this case nirvana. I don’t crave nirvana, I am and enjoy what is there and endure what I don’t like. What else is there to do?

          I’m not really sure if nirvana is possible and I don’t really care, but I feel and understand the logic behind it. It helped me much in the past.

          Everyone has its own path. I wish you well

          • @toynbee
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            14 days ago

            Well, this thread certainly wasn’t the uplifting start to my day I hoped it would be.

    • lime!
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      14 days ago

      yeah you should get a pilot’s license

      • palordrolap
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        44 days ago

        He’d want it back.

        But seriously, that’s not practical for a number of reasons, one being I don’t have money. Another kind of major one is the kind of mental health problems that could make me push the stick forward at 1000 ft and hold it until things went dark. Like this comment.

        • lime!
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          24 days ago

          yeah no it’s not a serious suggestion obviously, the cost is insane. you should get a pilot acquaintance then :)