Hey welcome to my ramble of the day.

Lately I’ve been very aware of how every day I accomplish a little less and have more trouble getting through an evening without drinking.

Christmas is coming up and I’m spending it in Switzerland with my brother-in-law. All good, you’d say. Except both me and my wife are running on fumes. We are both super tired. We’ve discussed skipping it but we cannot do this to my mother-in-law. She doesn’t often get both her kids together and she’s had a rough year.

In any event, looking at my progress over the past few weeks I feel like I’m doing a little worse every day and just that realization is making me kind of depressed.

So before I get all kinds of recommendations, here’s my current game plan:

• I’ve registered with a psychologist (not in the USA so insurance is not an issue)
• My employer knows of evening and they are very supportive. I haven’t been working since beginning of September)
• I intend to take it very easy in Switzerland and try to relax around the other days of Christmas as well. Beginning of January will be super chill for me.

Thanks for bearing with me. I really hope to improve in the next year.