Sometimes you might grow with people telling you you’re good, but utterly inadequate dumbasses, and still believe you are good. Just not believe anyone around to say compliments sincerely and adequately at the same time. Either they say compliments, but they are dumbasses just like your immediate family, or they say compliments, but they can’t be trusted. And also due to all those inadequate people around you learn to doubt everything , yourself first and foremost to god forbid avoid becoming like them. As a result, feeling shit about any compliments by themselves. Even if you like a girl, her just keeping talking to you is very pleasant, but her compliments seem like a way to hide some kind of alienation.
Sometimes you might grow with people telling you you’re good, but utterly inadequate dumbasses, and still believe you are good. Just not believe anyone around to say compliments sincerely and adequately at the same time. Either they say compliments, but they are dumbasses just like your immediate family, or they say compliments, but they can’t be trusted. And also due to all those inadequate people around you learn to doubt everything , yourself first and foremost to god forbid avoid becoming like them. As a result, feeling shit about any compliments by themselves. Even if you like a girl, her just keeping talking to you is very pleasant, but her compliments seem like a way to hide some kind of alienation.