I feel like everyone likes another fake personality instead of me. I’m a void. I’m nothing. Eventually they’ll see that I’m nothing on the inside and I’d rather just disappear before that happens. I really give up. I think my boyfriend deserves a better woman but he’s so set on me. I’m horrible. I hate that I love him. I deserve nothing. I should have just known my place and continued hiding myself from society. It’s all so overwhelming.
We live in a world of fakeness, and if you’re not standing out, it’s probably because you’re a genuine person. Your boyfriend sees that and loves you for it. The goal is to learn to see it in yourself. Forgive your mistakes, accept your flaws and love your strengths.
The online world is all smoke and mirrors. Lies without joy. Looking like perfection.
As I got older, my circles got smaller but better. I cared less about a lot of the noise. Just focussed on being the best me I can be, flaws and all. It took years to get to the point where I love and accept me. Where I forgive my mistakes and can just focus on being better in the future.
Don’t be hard on yourself. You’re going through a tricky time. You’ll come through this. The fact you feel this shows you’re not a void. You’re human. You deserve love.
I don’t know you, but from here I can see you’re very introspective and candid. I like that.
You don’t have to hide from society but you can choose when you deal with it and when you need a rest. That’s cool. No one has unlimited social energy.