This finally occurred to me the other day. NTs can just have a conversation without putting in to much effort but for us it requires concentration. Casual small talk becomes a chore so we get tired off it and try to get out of the conversation. This isn’t something NTs can understand since they don’t have to put thought into talking and acting “normal.”
The possible exception to this is when Autistic people talk about special interests. This creates dopamine in the brain so we basically become high.
in my mid-life adulthood, it has been a major revelation for me to discover that my most enduring personality trait is that i will always seek to end any interaction as quickly as possible, with as little damage as possible.
for my entire life, as soon as i can get get out, i do get out.
I get out right after I embarrass myself. (Or at least it feels that way especially with RSD)