• @DillyDaily
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    141 day ago

    I mean even just from a totally innocent position, I’m exhausted right now and in the past month I’ve almost died falling down the stairs 5 times from the sleep deprivation (the ER is getting sick of my clumsiness)

    I know I’ll sleep better once my cohabitation separation is finalised.

    This morning I brushed my teeth with my partner’s athletes foot ointment. Didn’t even realise it tasted like ass and felt like wax until I was trying to spit it out and wondering why it was clinging to my teeth. I’m just not human anymore, I am physically and mentally burnt out carrying the entire cognitive and household labour load of the relationship for the last 10 years.

    • @blazeknave
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      91 day ago

      Based on the last sentence, it’ll get better. Just don’t beat yourself up if you’re not who you were before. A decade is a long time.

      • @captainlezbian
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        41 day ago

        Yeah, you weren’t going to be the same person regardless. But also, things like that change you, a lot of things will change you. Life is about accepting where you are and making the best choices you can moving forward