I have anger issues, which I can’t control. I am considered conventionally attractive (though I don’t see it) and many people think I’m cool and want to be around me.

Like I said, though, I have anger issues where I will act quite aggressively towards people. One time, someone I knew said hi to me, so I screamed “I HEARD YOU”. I also tend to type very dryly and with periods when I’m upset (which is admittedly ~90% of the time but I can’t control that).

My friend doesn’t talk to me as much and I really don’t get why because even when I’m “aggressive”, it’s tough love and I’m trying to help them. If I didn’t love her, I wouldn’t be like that.

I’m even like this with guys I’ve dated and I love them not as brothers.

Women also piss me off more than men do, so I hang out more with them because I feel like they get me and aren’t as bitchy. (Part of the reason why I’m bi curious but never found a woman I’d date, excluding one I almost went out with).

While I do tend to praise men and ignore women, as some people say, it’s tough love since I think women should be the best versions of themselves :) [I believe this is why society is so hard on women as a whole]

But yeah, TLDR; My mood problems impact the people I care about, and I’m wondering if it’s a turn off since some people don’t want to be around me rather than loving me for me.

I have a reason for my actions, people just choose to ignore those reasons and misinterpret me.

  • Maeve
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    114 days ago

    This person thrives on attention. It doesn’t matter if it is good or bad attention. They look like they are experiencing narcissistic collapse, and that needs to happen with people far and safely away from them.

      • rico (she/him)
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        154 days ago

        i have all 3 and do not behave this way. i don’t believe any of these cause someone to think the way you do.

      • thermal_shock
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        33 days ago

        No, you sound like an ass hole and are seeking attention of others to “justify” it or help build your defense. No one likes ass holes, be a better person, hell even your “friend” doesn’t want to hang with you.

        • @[email protected]OP
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          13 days ago

          Well, I mean, there’s these two girls who like to talk about how much they hate people with me, soooo…

          It’s literally us against the world, I swear. Just three depressed women who hate everything 😓

      • @[email protected]
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        44 days ago

        We’re those diagnosed by a mental health professional who also ruled out other diagnoses? Are you seeing a therapist regularly?

        • @[email protected]OP
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          14 days ago

          No therapist anymore, diagnosed ADHD as a child but I may have autism as well (not diagnosed yet).

          Depression at 17.

          • @[email protected]
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            54 days ago

            Sounds like it would be worthwhile to have a diagnosis again now that you’re an adult, and attend therapy to discuss the anger issues

      • @agavaa
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        14 days ago

        You’re clearly not just that.