Don’t suggest hobbies or human contact. It’s been suggested and it doesn’t work.

I have a job I don’t particularly hate nor like, some coworkers I get along with others are just morons, I go to work, then buy groceries, go home, eat, watch tv, go to bed. Rinse and repeat.

On my free days I do sport and watch pirated netflix. I don’t spend much money on clothing or media and save most of my paycheck. What for? I have no idea. I don’t eat out because I like cooking my own food and restaurants are expensive and the food is bland.

Everything is so expensive nowadays btw…

Most people bore me. I’m like an atheist monk.

I don’t want to kill myself or anybody fwiw. It’s like I don’t give a crap about anything or anyone and don’t see what’s the point of living.

I don’t want to travel because it costs money.

As soon as my cognitive abilities start to fail I’m going to be very easy prey for any online scammer.

  • @Shanmugha
    2•3 days ago

    Edit: most important part. Yes, there is a way. I am in no position to claim to know what is going to help you, but I do know this: there is another way to live. Following is what I have tried and it worked

    Been around there, it really is not a good place. Time to look inside. You only have so much time left to live, and only so much energy to do things. As to what can be done, then if possible, take a good break: quit job, buy food, then just stay home. No books, no TV, no speaking to anyone, no internet, no games, no nothing. Your mind will go wild for some time, but then you will recover and see life with more clarity

    And for the big picture - look inside. If you were to die today, what would you do? Whom would you speak to one last time? Where would you go if distance was not an issue? What do you want to be done with your dead body? (If the answer is “nothing, I don’t care”, I would strongly suggest go see a doctor. Depression does not just go away)

    Also, remember this every day: tomorrow morning, you may not wake up. Today you woke up, but a day will come when you don’t. Remind this to yourself. Slowly this will change your perspective

    If you happen to feel like talking - message or ping me, I will answer as fast as I can