I already told you how it all started in my previous posts, but now it’s different because I started having sex with him, before he only gave me blowjobs and now I started fucking his ass. I have to admit that it’s a very nice thing to do, I’ve never fucked a butt before, I’ve always fucked pussies.
and I’m a little confused, because it started for money [not counting the jerk off we did in college watching porn] and I feel absolutely nothing for him other than friendship and brotherhood, he doesn’t attract me at all but I enjoy fucking him, although it’s not as satisfying as doing it with a woman.
and I realized that what I enjoy is having a man on a par dominated and in my power. that makes me horny and I don’t know why.
My beloved gaybro, I responded to you in a previous thread. This seems to be weighing on you quite a bit. I think you may need to ask yourself “why am I afraid of being gay?” Your sexuality is probably not as big of a deal as you think. But for some reason that is known only to you, this topic keeps intruding on your mind. I’m glad you feel safe asking these questions here. I’m glad this community exists for you. But you may need to do some more serious self reflection on where your true fears and concerns lie before we can give any helpful guidance.