I have been on this journey for a few months now. For the prior two years, I had been in a deep depressive hole for reasons, which is too long to get into right now. Anyway, I decided that 2023 would be when I change. I started seeing a career counselor, I got a new job, and I even found my way into a relationship somehow. I also started exercising and seeing a chiropractor to get into better shape.
Regardless of the actual longevity of some of those things since January, I started myself on a new path to not feeling suicidal. I still struggle with depression, but I haven’t had nearly as many intrusive thoughts because of my new therapist and my quote board for positive affirmations and inspiration.
Regarding Reddit, we all know how toxic it is. I had a mental breakdown over there which exacerbated my thoughts and got me banned on all of my accounts. So I moved as quickly as I could to Lemmy.
Yes, I still have a lot of progress to make and goals to achieve, but I’ll get there, and you can too. I have long realized that you are the ultimate decision maker. Even if people tell you what to do, you still have the power to subvert expectations and impulsively make your own decision.
It can be very easy to go the bad route with that decision. You have to tell yourself to go the good route and make it possible to help people help you. It starts with saying that you can’t be this way forever and wanting to genuinely make an effort to seek help, whether in your mental health struggles, career, relationships, et cetera. All it takes is one decision, one step at a time. It will be slow, but you’ll get there.
I was new to Reddit, only on for just under 2 years. The amount of toxic, trolling hate I received was demoralizing. It definitely affected my mood, and reduced my belief that humans were mostly good, caring people. I began to see that many more people than I wanted to believe reveled in demeaning, insulting, and hateful attitudes- for pure joy.
I know I definitely chose for the most part not to post or comment on Reddit because I saw so many people either ignored or not getting supportive responses to posts that definitely required it. I’m hoping this will be a place where everyone will feel heard and respected. We may not be the busiest community, but we can at least be one where it’s okay to be imperfect and talk through your issues honestly.
Are you better now?
Much better here, but other circstances in my life continue to cause serious challenges
I’m here if you ever need to vent.