Honestly probably being accepted in more irl women’s circles (I’m just rejected from all currently). Here in the US South that isn’t really a possibility without passing unfortunately. A few years of hrt hasn’t been sufficient in overcoming my bone structure, so I can’t really see myself correctly most of the time…I can’t really blame anyone for constantly misgendering me. I’m a they/she sort of trans enby but I just default to neutral pronouns because of it…and people still don’t even acknowledge those. Being alive just hurts most of the time and I’m not sure that will ever change.