Live in the past, is mine. I will listen to things over and over because some songs or even podcast episodes, rewind me back to times where I felt comfortable in. I do sometimes poke my head out to see where things are currently in the present, but nothing around really makes me gravitate to anything current-day. But, then I just go back to my hole in living in the past.
People used to tell old people to get over it about them remembering things as they were all of the time. I’m understanding why they do that. Sometimes the present really truly sucks.
Also tall guy here. Realize that most back pain is actually inflammation. Yes, I have some blown discs in my lower back and I used to have to get shots in them to reduce the swelling. Manage your inflammation and you will have fewer troubles. Of course, you have to stop lifting those heavy things in a stupid way.