I’ve had a bit of a rough go with it in terms of being raised in a bad environment, not properly socialised properly early in life, and to top it off my partner of 7 years just ended things because of some pretty nasty issues between us that I felt were perfectly fixable.

Everything as it is, I’ve started having issues with feelings of being disposable. Like I don’t matter, like I’m nothing and I can’t expect people to stick around, like they’re waiting for a reason to abandon me.

On a logical level that doesn’t hold much water, but at this point I’m starting to wonder how to fight these feelings if they come from very factual places. How can I justify the thought that I inheritly have worth, if the reality of the situation is that I keep being treated like garbage.

I’m doing all the right stuff, seeing a psych, prioritising recover, actually have a pretty decent inner voice going, but the feelings are still really strong and it’s hard to fight them. I’m not really sure how to handle this.

  • Jtee
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    13 hours ago

    I find it hard, but try some introspection to find what your mental and physical needs are (hobbies, bodily movement, experiencing nature, whatever it may be) and then see how you can meet those needs on your own.

    Once you start to get a better grasp on yourself and your own needs without external validation, youll be closer to the zone of “happy on my own/loving yourself”.

    Then you can start to fit someone else into the picture, be it a romantic partner or more friends.

    If you do have any close friends you know you can trust, lean on them. Tell them where you are mentally, and let them know they don’t need to be there always, but when you’re in the shits they will be better prepared to support you

    And always remember, baby steps are still steps forward. (Also, if you have access to therapy/counseling, please reach out to someone professional)