Most of my adult life has involved lots and lots of work. Right now I’m juggling like three and a half jobs. I “only” worked five hours yesterday because of the holiday. I need to go back to sleep now to get up to be ready for work at 8 am. I’ll be working until 9 pm, with a similar schedule tomorrow, Wednesday and Thursday.
I don’t even have health insurance.
Drugs are pretty nice. Staying up late getting stoned and drinking helps reset my brain. I can even trick myself into cleaning when stoned.
Was doing the therapy thing, but it was so expensive. Also not any good really. CBT is the opposite of ineffective for rumination, at least for me, and for some reason a thorough, researched explanation on my opposition to CBT has never convinced any practitioner to not eventually suggest it/pressure me into it.
I am hoping to save enough to move to another state by August. Part of the maintaining the multiple jobs. Moving is just so expensive. Getting my certifications transferred was a couple hundred dollars alone. Hundred on another test too. I just need to find a job over there and figure out how to move over there. It’s just terrifying leaving my guaranteed side work, having to rebuild a loyal client base, just to make sure I always have a way to get more money in a pinch.