Like what biological function thinks it’s helpful to want to die? It’s a visceral reaction so it has to be a kind of biological intuition.
I’ve got it so bad off of something that is seemingly not worth this reaction. But I can’t shake it anyway. But if this sense is biological, then it can cascade beyond reason like an allergic reaction.
I went to a board game night with some folks who are mostly acquaintances. I show up and a group is already starting to figure out a game and it looked like the easiest group to join. This game is bad. I was chill. My teammate was chill. The people we were playing with were chill. But this game was so bad I can’t shake the fact that despite everyone having made the best of it, this was not a good social interaction. And I just feel bad. More bad than I should feel. It’s just painful.
The game was Jurassic Park Danger! And maybe I just need to tell someone. I’m not going to do anything. I don’t need a wellness check. But I can’t shake this feeling like death would be ok and maybe for the best.
What is it about bad social interactions that make us feel like death is preferable?
Yes, every marketing meeting I have.
For me it’s like being the only non-beleiver at the cult. Everything they say is so cringey, yet you have to smile and laugh because everyone else drank the koolaid. It makes me wanna crawl out of my skin. Maybe its coz im also the only introvert in a room full of extroverts, but those social interactions make me think maybe i dont belong in this world if these people seem to be the normal ones.
Its always just a fleeting thought though, im assuming like yours
yeah marketing meetings are especially bad. my take is that the inherent dishonesty in marketing should make any honest sane person revolt against it. you’re stuck in a hard place because you have to play the game of “lying to the customer” along with them.