Most of my friends married and moved on, had kids, etc. Our lives are so dramatically different that even if I reach out and try to reconnect, I’m still “that weird guy from school”- I can tell immediately when I see them.
The other friends are deceased. Those were the friends I expected would outlive me. I’d hear from them every year or two when they came back to town. That hasn’t happened now for a few years, because they’re all gone. They were better looking and more social than I was and they’re no longer with us. Doesn’t inspire confidence.
Making new friends feels impossible without lying and bullshitting about who I really am. Each new person I start to befreind says something insane/far right and it’s instantly ruined.
Excluding family, nobody even remembered my birthday this year. No texts, no cards. If I weren’t useful at my job I would be completely invisible.
I force myself out of my comfort circle every weekend and go to the big city. All I wind up achieving is a few hundred less dollars in the bank, with a bit of heartburn and a hangover in the morning.
Is there something anyone can recommend? I don’t know if there’s anything else to try.
Video games? I’m about the same age and have moved so much that I have no friends left other than some old former co-workers from across the country I text with. Anyway, I play video games and smoke weed to keep myself entertained.
Wish it were legal here. I have a few discord buddies but I’m the “weird one” in the group I suspect. I do play some games- I play the daily run of Binding of Isaac every day.
I’m always getting a fresh batch of games when they go on sale. I wait until they are around $10 on steam so they are older but it doesn’t matter when you don’t have friends! Or they are single player.