You know the type, probably a good father or worker, but serious faced all the time, never smiles, often in a bad mood, very cynical. It’s just I feel like I’m on the path to this, I’m 28, just escaped 12 years of food service so I’m already super cynical and if someone comes up to me, I’m super ready to shut down whatever’s about to happen. I feel like working with customers for years I’ve learned to have giant walls up and I can’t seem to remove them. I see the other guys in the factory I’m working at laughing and joking all the time, I think of myself as funny but it’s always deadpan humor and I wish I could genuinely smile and laugh and make friends with the other guys. Any old timers or well travelers out there have any advice?
Yeah I’m 38 and I’ve noticed the same lately. I occasionally think about death and my own mortality - that one day, like everyone, I’m going to cease to exist. I’m probably half way through life if I’m fortunate. All these factors has lead me to a conclusion that life is to short to be grumpy for no real reason, decide to be happy. I’m working on it, and things are far better this way. I’ve always been a person who has a smile on their face but that’s been changing. People often think or ask, where do I want to be in 5-10 years, I go the opposite. I think of myself on my deathbed and reflect what would I have been satisfied with in life? Pretty weird but is what works for me.