I rarely see the sun or hangout with other humans.

It is hard. It has been like this since 2018

I just cried because I saw this animated video of how nature, it looked amazing, I missed my childhood home.

You see, I live in an apartment.

And I am in middle east and near the coast the and apparently the AC unit is not dehumidifying and I can’t change it since it came with the apartment.

I have to get a dehumidifier, it will cost a lot, and I promised my father that since I failed life I will just spend on necessities.

That why I didn’t go to doctors, and get a dehumidifier, phone etc. For so long.

Per the system it took me 2 years to get a replacement for a microwave. It was hard.

Now, I am so agitated, I can’t sleep with humidity level 60 to 70%

I miss being out. I just miss it.

It seems, I am alone in this.

No other person with autism on reddit or lemmy is in a similar situation.

I envy those with high functioning autism who have no mental retardation. And bizarrely those who habe the sever kind,.they are taken care of.

Sorry, I am really down, I feel like I can’t be myself, and being alone is hard

  • mountainRadishOP
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    5 days ago

    I am around 40.

    Been living alone since 2018.

    I wish if I lived in a town bouse/villa not in apartment.

    Going sitting outside… I miss that.

    Recently I realized I am not intellectually disabled, I am just mentally retarded, meaning I have a slow cpu.

    Before realizing that, I learned finally how to clean and wipe the bothroom floor without going crazy and spending a long time. It used to take hours, I do.it.under 15 minutes…OH YEAH BABY.

    I BAVE a hypothesis, that maybe if I changed apartment, I will have this problem again. I think not, but maybe.

    I also learned… I forgot, I have e learned two things this year and it took me decades.

    I have MCI, suspected, there is no real test to know, just a random neurologist testing you with a short exam.

    2026 been tough, dude, I am from the country which is attacked but Donald the orange boy, and I am in a country where they might deport me any day. I was born here, dude.

    Hope that won’t happen.