I have a myofascial injury that is getting to overwhelming pain, and I’m suspect I won’t be able to recover and will die if I don’t have access to rest soon. My life-partner has been actively angry toward me because he hasn’t gotten sufficient food, and is refusing to stop when I calmly request him to. I don’t want to consent begging for food for him currently because here’s ambiguity he’s trying to kill me. I’m begging for ability to rest, and for my life-partner to refrain from wanting to harm me.
I don’t believe a hospital is able to provide access to basic rest for me to heal the injury. I need to be able to have access to walking, laying, & yoga postures for it to heal. It also isn’t unusual for people to be angry & molesting toward me, and I don’t think hospitals are able to prevent this or are prepared for it. I’ve also been warned that some hospitals are committing genocide in the local area, which is another reason I’m hesitant to try taking refuge at one.
I don’t blame you for your hesitation, but you need to go. It is the best chance you have right now.
My life-partner & I got access to food this morning. His anger subsided, and I’m also able to remain outside the shower. Cannabis is also helpful with the myofascial injury, and is medical for this reason here. I still don’t see what an ER is offering that is going to assist with the injury, because I need to e.g. do yoga throughout the day. A doctor agreed that yoga could help with the injury when I asked.
What good has posting here done? You can do yoga at the hospital, or literally anywhere, but you require a supportive environment and access to assistive services in your current state. If you don’t chose to go, you will eventually be taken there, because the way you are living and dealing with your injury is not sustainable, so you might as well choose your own time to go to the ER.
The emergency aspect of the injury subsided once I got some food and had some energy to do basic self-massage & mudras. I’m still in severe pain, though I’m confident possible for me to rest in solitude better than I think a hospital can provide. I haven’t heard before of a hospital offering something like an extended stay to be able to rest and do yoga. Based on some experience, strife may follow me even if I’m in a hospital.
*Update - my life-partner’s enraged again. He used the n-word toward me again as a racial slur. It isn’t safe currently. I’m needing to be prepared to run for the front door qua escape every time he leaves the bedroom. Being able to state what’s happening here is important to my safety.
*Now he’s in a calmer loving-kind mood again. He has schizoaffective PTSD, and it can be volatile like this particularly during food insecurity : (.