As a kid from 10 to 18 I drew modeled etc. Filled scetch books drew 12 hours a day or at least 4 hours hunched over and doing stuff. Now it’s hard for me to pick up a pencil, or open blender without a existential crisis or something like PTSD hiting me and I become really stressed.
I want to creat but I become so stressed. I haven’t drawn in 5 years now, only from time to time trying to do it every year and failing every year.
It’s hard to explain. I got perfectionism, performence anxiety from my past drawings and it makes me just sad. Every time I try to draw trauma flies up and makes things harder. The proces it’s self I love. I love the hobby but these things are making it hard to finish anything.
Another major problem is online everyone talks about it like I work at at a AAA company and it’s making things even harder to enjoy. All the artist I followed left the internet as a whole altough they post 1 drawing a year at best.
How do I push trough this ?
Feels relavent to a meme i saw a little earlier from now
I think just start and then at some point thats within your time available, simply call it done, however it is, and accept your first output as it is.
Then do it again