• Bleeping Lobster
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    691 year ago

    About 5 years ago, I had this dream… I was sat at the bottom of a spiral staircase, in what I knew to be my house, having a party with my fiancee sat next to me. I laughed and said “How did I get so lucky, someone pinch me!”. Fiancee pinched me, I said “ow!” and we laughed. Then I woke up, fucking brutal sense of loss for a wonderful life that suddenly didn’t exist.

    I still remember it quite clearly. Last month my landlord served notice on me after 13 years (wants to sell), I’m self employed and always thought a mortgage was out of the question. Well… I have tenative approval from a lender… and an offer accepted on a house… still time for it to fall apart. So I refuse to get excited till keys in hand.

    Anyway this has turned into a bit of a long ting. But just wanted to share, for anyone else who thinks it’s impossible… it’s very hard. But do-able.

      • Bleeping Lobster
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        61 year ago

        Thanks! I’m sure it will. Worst case scenario I’ll live with my dad for a bit who I love to bits, I won’t be homeless whatever happens.

    • radix
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      51 year ago

      Good luck, I hope you move in safely and everything goes well.

    • @[email protected]
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      21 year ago

      Dude I’m so sorry, isn’t why is it that your own brain/subconscious can be so shitty to yourself? Why Do we torture ourselves :(

      • Bleeping Lobster
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        21 year ago

        Exceptionally cruel, wasn’t it! Probably just my subconscious trying to remind me that I once dreamed of owning my own home and finding that special someone. “Like come on dude! I’m trapped in here with you, the input of late has become quite depressing, can you sort yourself out please?”