While growing up everything gave me the impression that sex is the best thing in life and everything revolves around it. Many of my friends had their first experiences really young and it seemed like something really exciting and something to look forward to. However after my couple first experiences I was met with the harsh reality that it wasn’t what I was expecting. I already had a long history of enjoying porn and masturbation and I then just felt like including another person added nothing to it for me. Quite the opposite really - it just got more complicated and often felt like a chore. Like asking someone else to scratch an itch for me.
I don’t know anyone else like me and I’m confused about what am I. I’m quite sexual being but I just don’t care about the act of sex itself. I resonate with a alot of things I hear aces talking about but I also feel like I’m not quite welcome in this club either.
Asexuality is a broad term that can refer to many things. Some people are genuinely sex-repulsed, some are completely indifferent, some can only experience sexual attraction when there’s an established emotional bond, etc. All of these fit under the umbrella of asexuality.
You fit if you so choose to. It sounds to me that you have a high libido but no sexual “attraction” to people. There may be a more specific term under the ace spectrum, but the labels are really just there to help you find community.