I know ive made post like this before, but I really do feel pretty defeated, I just dont look anything like my selfies to others, I look pretty awful to be honest, I weight 200 lbs and its been a struggle to loose weight, I know the solution is to see a dietation, and only stock my home with healthy foods and go to the gym maybe but the truth is I can’t really afford that and I dont feel like I can really cook until I move since my mom is kinda defensive over the kitchen. Ive struggled with binge for a while and I just look at photos other people take me and want go vomit, I look so awful. I look like zero months hrt dispite a bit over two years of hrt. My selfies only look okay cause of angles. People have also tried to convince my male fat will redistribute but I know that isn’t true and that it will stay until I get rid of it. Also I apologize for the grammer in this post, I’m writing this as I’m about to mentally explode.
I feel like its more of paranoia than anything, I’m 21 I can cook for myself just she kinda worries a ton about basic thing like fires lmao. To be fair another problem is I haven’t exactly had many ideas for low calories meals. It might get better once I can drive myself to get things.
This is basically where I’m at, like, Mom and I wanna change diets and its medically necessary for her and simply healthier for me, but I am given more of the work. Shopping at the store myself can be helpful, but she mostly buys what we need. We have like a dozen cookbooks about eating more greens and beans or “healthier”. We have three slow-cookers. I know I could fill them up but she does most of the cooking… I’m just being asked to do so many things. I hate the gym, btw. I don’t like walking at the park either but I’ve never had an issue. People who walk at a local park nowadays are friendly or at least kind.