Okay, so this is weird.
I seriously don’t do loud environments. My speech discrimination goes to shit with a bunch of background noise, and if I get into overly-spiky crowd noise (eg. loud bars / parties, with everyone yelling over each other and echoing off the walls), I rapidly overload and need to GTFO before I break down.
So why in the purple fuck is frantic glitchy breakcore the most soothing thing in the universe?
I’ve been listening to stuff like femtanyl recently, and the more IYTGKIUFUYGLICGXJYUGJTYUFLIHFUYGKJKHJGHYTFTJGHFDYGFDJHCHTRF it gets, the more it feels like my brain is sinking into a warm bath. It’s like brown noise, but moreso.
Tha heck is going on?
Anyone relate?
I’m also autistic and always attributed this issue to that rather than ad(h)d, but I did think about this and did notice a pattern. There’s 2 things that seem to control whether loud music is acceptable for me or whether it overloads my brain:. It eitther needs to be the single source of sound (i.e. festivals, concerts) or it needs to be fully in my control. Preferably both. I can’t handle music playing and people talking over it, because they’re two sources of sound that I can’t effectively filter. When I’m at a show specifically for the music, I hear nothing but the music and it’s usually also music that I enjoy. When I have control over the music, it seems to make it easier as well. When I get overloaded I can instantly stop it, which stops the panic situation when my brain starts overloiding and there’s not easy escape from the noise.
Edit: and I also listen to pretty fast/noisy music. I assume it’s because my mind gets distracted and starts wandering when there isn’t enough going on.
These are both very good points that I hadn’t considered, and seem to make a lot of sense.
Huh.