My point overall, and based on everything you’ve said being arbitrary, the idea of good and bad, of free will, and of suffering, is that there’s seemingly no point in following and/or praising a being that just doesn’t seem to care about anyone. If believing in him changes nothing, why do it? Because of some promise of a heaven? But the next point makes that argument untenable.

We’re meant to figure out what “being good” is, but the complexity of our world makes that impossible. And then those who feel they have figured it out get nothing for it anyway. They still get sick, they still suffer at the hands of others, they still die just like the rest of us. As far as anyone knows, death is the end (anyone claiming otherwise is fooling themselves or lying). So what are we actually to do?

If God has promised to make us a new perfect world, he’s taking his sweet time. Meanwhile, people are suffering. Every day he waits is another day of global pain for no other reason than that our world is unfair and unpredictable.

That’s not a being I’d want to believe in.