My mood has been hypercycling for a while. But today really sucked, my favorite person that I live with got pissed at me for a reason I still don’t know. Has also been very stand offish with random moments of closeness like we usually have. The whole while stopping things we were doing together to do them with their bf instead. I love them a lot but today I just want to pick up and leave, I only live here for them. I know I’m being jealous but I can’t seem to help it. I feel nauseous with emotion and want to hit the destruct button and start over some where else. Don’t know what to do, and i guess im just venting I suppose
I’m sorry you’re having a rough time. Issues around where we live can be so stressful, because home is supposed to be safe and predictable. What does your therapist think about your relationship with this friend? Have you discussed it much? Do you have a therapist? Do you and your friend see your relationship together in the same way?
Good luck my friend! I hope you feel good again soon!