It seems like all the onus is on to socialise in the meantime you are relentlessly judged for how you go about socialising or dating. I am on college right now and I am seriously struggling to make friendships. My anxiety is kinda on overdrive because of it. I am expected to know if I am welcome to come or not but if I am not supposed I am judged severely. Meanwhile there’s no one really coming up to me trying to help me. You know I’d like to just once be good enough for someone to come up to me and say that they just want to be around me. Enough of the guesswork. I am tired of it. I’m in my mid 20s just give me a fucking break at this point. So much of my “disability” would just go away if people had the decency to fucking educate themselves and expect me to know everything. I put myself out there and talk to people. I’ve done my fucking part.

  • StrikerOPEnglish
    2•1 year ago

    I am not pretending to be anyone. Trying not to care isn’t a realistic solution because if I don’t care then how will I meet people? The end results is me spending my days alone.

    • @[email protected]English
      -1•1 year ago

      The end results is me spending my days alone.

      Have you considered the possibility that this might be the most you can achieve socially? Or even… that you might be better off alone?

      • StrikerOPEnglish
        1•1 year ago

        God forbid I actually want a social life then. Expecting accommodation for my disability the penalty isolation. Fucking neurotypicals. I want a social life. I want a romantic life. The only reasons those things are supposedly unaccessible is because of the bigoted attitude of others. I am tired of being told its all my fault for not changing my behaviour enough or because I am apparently asking for too much as a person on the spectrum.

        • @474DEnglish
          10•1 year ago

          You seem to think that you are OWED relationships and friendships by the world. You are not, nuerotypical or otherwise. They are earned through effort. Just reading your posts in this thread make you seem unpleasant and anxious to be around. It may be time to consider that your personality and outlook is a significant contributor here, and not just your diagnosis.

          • StrikerOPEnglish
            -5•1 year ago

            Sit down, shut up and know your place. Got it.

            • @474DEnglish
              10•1 year ago

              My man, people want to be around people they can feel comfortable with. I have to assume the negative energy you are expressing in this thread is also being expressed in your actual life. You need to slow down and be the type of person that you yourself would like to be around. You want people to be understanding about you and your condition, you have to put that out there too.

              • @sethEnglish
                6•1 year ago

                This is good advice. At some point I noticed some of my friendships were just people validating each other’s negative attributes. I don’t want to be or be perceived as a negative person, so I’ve focused on trying more to keep my negative vibes to myself. Those friendships have suffered, which is a bummer because I actually like and respect those people. But, if I’m genuinely feeling positive, I can be myself more and mask less, and that makes socialising a bit less exhausting.

              • ᗪIᐯEᖇGEᑎTᕼᗩᖇᗰOᑎIᑕᔕEnglish
                3•1 year ago

                Uh this hurts. Please remember where we are posting here and that people might have subtle but very relevant differences in the way they empathise and communicate. Thank you.

                If you want people to understand you then you have to express the you. That’s what OP does. Expressing their discomfort so that others can know about it. If others don’t feel comfortable around someone who is not comfortable with them in the first place, then that’s exactly what they should feel. Discomfort. … OP seems to not yet know that the people they are looking fore will be the ones who actually understand such a mode of empathic communication, and know how to be comforting.

            • @sethEnglish
              8•1 year ago

              I don’t think that’s what they’re saying. Think about the reasons why you want a friend or romantic partner, and then have a good idea how you expect those relationships to enhance your life and what kinds of behaviors you’re not willing to put up with. Then you have to brainstorm about what strengths you have that can enhance other people’s lives, and honestly consider what kinds of patterns you may do or say that others are not willing to put up with. Healthy relationships are built around giving and supporting in a positive way, so try to focus on being positive and making personal progress so that others will see you as a kind, positive person and want to be around you.

        • @[email protected]English
          5•1 year ago

          You’re asking others to provide you with a social life.

          I do believe that you’re trying your best, but you’re not entitled to have others want to hang out with you. If they wanted to, then you’re right and you did your part. But what if they don’t want to? Do they have to change themselves just for you to have a social life?

          I’m not gonna lie, you’re entitled attitude here makes me feel like you are not pleasant to be around. I may be misreading you, but I’m getting major incel vibes. Here’s the thing: you trying to make friends doesn’t mean they have to reciprocrate.

          You are not entitled to have otherslike you or want to hang out with you. Your desire for a social and romantic life is valid and understandable, but that is on your side. The world does not have to care about it, as hard as it sounds.

          For what it’s worth, it took me until my mid-thirties to actually find a social circle. More than 3/4 of my life I struggled just as you. Stop expecting from the world to bend over backwards for you, work on your attitudes and on accepting that even though you gave it your best shot these people may not be friend material. If that happwns, move on.

          Don’t try to hang out with people because you want to make friends. Hang out with people because you want to do something interesting. Shift your focus from making friends to simply enjoying the time. I don’t know what your interests are, but you can join a movie club if you area movie nerd, you can try geocaching if that tickles your fancy, go running… whatever activity you enjoy. Once the pressure on yourself is gone from “I have to make friends” chances are you will be much more relaxed and approachable.

          People are not a tool to get a social life. A social life happens when you do things you enjoy and you find people who share that passion on the way.