I dont mean depression or anxiety (this feels different), I mean feeling like you never really recharge, like youve never gotten time off ever. Which I think is partly due to a tendency to put literally 100% into something until you feel fried, move on to the next thing rinse repeat. Even “down time” doesnt really feel like down time because I am stuck between either boredom, working on yet another thing or thinking about things in general.
While some amount of that can be cool, I’ve found that trying too hard to get rest via passive activities can make the described symptoms worse. I think one should strive for am mix of passive and active recreation.
The thing that solved this for me was actually scheduling time to do it.
If I set aside a couple hours for audiobook time, I can trick myself into actually engaging without thinking about all the other stuff I need to do because this is scheduled and equally important.