I was self-medicating with cannabis for a long time… oh, watch out for giving your location away like that, you could accidentally dox yourself.
My fiance left me 6 years ago now. She couldn’t take it anymore. Looking back at my behavior, I can’t possibly blame her. The goddamndest thing about it is how I turned my life around practically overnight with lithium. if I had just had the right diagnosis and treatment, maybe… It’s hard to think about. Not mentally hard, but emotionally painful. Like, bad. Like “I never want to put myself in the position to be rejected like that again” bad. Even though I’ve been spending every moment since my diagnosis improving myself, correcting bad habits, etc. it’s like I’m doing it for nothing, because I’m afraid of that rejection I will never put myself out there. I haven’t gotten myself physically fit because, in my mind, making myself attractive might lead somewhere potentially painful. It’s very unhealthy, and with a revolving door of psychologists (few of whom, frankly, are even competent to begin with) leaving, I can’t actually get the help I need to break through on these issues. Seriously, this office has turnover like a college restaurant. I can attest: mental health in the VA sucks. To be fair, every physical complaint I’ve had handled through the VA has been just fine, literally no issues there. Unfortunately, it’s my brain that’s fucked up, so
Geodon changed my life in less than 48 hours. It’s amazing what can be done with the correct diagnosis. Be aware that lots of mental health meds cause weight gain… I’ve been struggling the last six months especially trying to lose and it refuses to come off. My therapist says isn’t my stability worth more than my weight? And she’s right. Ugh.
I was extremely hesitant to try lithium in the first place because it was labelled as an antipsychotic. “I’m not psychotic!” yes. yes I was. I was also hesitant because of the whole “kidney toxicity” and “non-insulin diabetes” and “liver toxicity,” but yeah eventually I had to agree with your doc’s line of reasoning too.
I was self-medicating with cannabis for a long time… oh, watch out for giving your location away like that, you could accidentally dox yourself.
My fiance left me 6 years ago now. She couldn’t take it anymore. Looking back at my behavior, I can’t possibly blame her. The goddamndest thing about it is how I turned my life around practically overnight with lithium. if I had just had the right diagnosis and treatment, maybe… It’s hard to think about. Not mentally hard, but emotionally painful. Like, bad. Like “I never want to put myself in the position to be rejected like that again” bad. Even though I’ve been spending every moment since my diagnosis improving myself, correcting bad habits, etc. it’s like I’m doing it for nothing, because I’m afraid of that rejection I will never put myself out there. I haven’t gotten myself physically fit because, in my mind, making myself attractive might lead somewhere potentially painful. It’s very unhealthy, and with a revolving door of psychologists (few of whom, frankly, are even competent to begin with) leaving, I can’t actually get the help I need to break through on these issues. Seriously, this office has turnover like a college restaurant. I can attest: mental health in the VA sucks. To be fair, every physical complaint I’ve had handled through the VA has been just fine, literally no issues there. Unfortunately, it’s my brain that’s fucked up, so
Geodon changed my life in less than 48 hours. It’s amazing what can be done with the correct diagnosis. Be aware that lots of mental health meds cause weight gain… I’ve been struggling the last six months especially trying to lose and it refuses to come off. My therapist says isn’t my stability worth more than my weight? And she’s right. Ugh.
I was extremely hesitant to try lithium in the first place because it was labelled as an antipsychotic. “I’m not psychotic!” yes. yes I was. I was also hesitant because of the whole “kidney toxicity” and “non-insulin diabetes” and “liver toxicity,” but yeah eventually I had to agree with your doc’s line of reasoning too.