• @Betch
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    29 months ago

    Be careful about wishing for capitalism to retire.

    Oh I know hahah. I’m always careful for what I wish for. I might not always chose the right words to put down but in my head my wish is pretty clear and simple. I wouldn’t wanna be able to say exactly what it was though because then according to the rules of the universe and the wishing laws, it would never come true 🤪

    I have little control over, so I don’t worry too much (hehe, that is an enormous lie just so you know:-P) Hah! Yeah I definitely relate to that hahah. I also try not to worry about things that are out of my hands but I still can’t stop thinking about it. I think I’m getting better at not really worrying and just accepting that I am just kind a visitor in this world. I find it to be relieving to not worry about things that are out of my reach, instead concentrating on the things that I can actually touch. However, I still constantly think about everything that is out of my reach, hoping that one day my reach extends either directly or indirectly through other people who I am in contact with. Stoicism is cute in theory but in practice I’m not sure it is, although I haven’t really spent more than a couple hours thinking about it and I have definitely not put it into practice. I tried reading Marcus Aurelius’ Meditations a long time ago but never actually managed to get that far into it.

    Holy crap are you my soulmate? J/k - I don’t even believe in that Hahah yeah I don’t know about soul mates. I wish it was real but at this point in my life I’ve lost faith. Also fuck the downvotes, people who actually take time to downvote things that are harmless aren’t worth a second of your time. Not upvoting would end up doing the same thing but no, they have to downvote. It’s trash behaviour from sad people.

    About fighting against instant messaging: fwiw, I know my limitations, and therefore work around them. I’m getting much better with it now, although I think it’s because my mental health has just been generally improving overall in the past couple months, making it easier for me to look through the fog at the things that are actually hurting me.

    And if it helps to hear from the other side, I would hate to be the cause of any pain for you. Though I am dumb as shit

    Aw hahah don’t say that, but I do understand what you mean as I am also dumb as shit. Oops, I said it too. I also believe that everybody has some kind of intelligence and wish more people could see that. Even someone who appears to be dumb as bricks will probably know way more than you in many areas. There’s just so much knowledge to be amassed out there and everybody picks up different bits. Thinking that someone is just 100% stupid and doesn’t know anything just shows a lack of insight or understanding.

    Rest easy:-P. Until it is time to rise again:-).

    I have! I’ve been feeling too good to stay cooped up at home these past couple days. I guess I haven’t really been resting but the change of scenery has been really nice.

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      29 months ago

      John Stewart (Daily Show) had a great message yesterday about what we were talking about wrt Trump: people around his orbit say one thing, but do the exact opposite irl, revealing how it is authoritarian BS and currying favor rather than reality. But he says it much better than I ever could so I will let you hear it from him.

      It’s (downvoting) trash behaviour from sad people.

      I need to talk with you a lot more often - this is stuff I need to hear:-). Speaking of, I am glad to hear that your mental health is improving. I thought mine was too but it is hard to navigate the storms of life and my sense of self is still tied up in the wrong things.:-( Then again, I will meditate on it and it becomes an opportunity to do better and grow… so that’s always a boon. Nobody enjoys those opportunities, but we do become so much better - less Monkey, more Mind - as a result:-).

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        I thought mine was too but it is hard to navigate the storms of life and my sense of self is still tied up in the wrong things.:-( Then again, I will meditate on it and it becomes an opportunity to do better and grow… so that’s always a boon. Nobody enjoys those opportunities, but we do become so much better - less Monkey, more Mind - as a result:-).

        Aw, that’s just part of the ups and downs of life. Just don’t let yourself fall too far down. Two steps forwards one step back is still one step forward. The last 2 days have been pretty shit for me in terms of mental health but at the same time I still realize that I am still doing MUCH better than I was just a month ago. It’s always a bit painful when your mood and mental health takes a bit of a dive but it helps to try and keep things in perspective.