I’ve been on a medical LOA since last year and tomorrow I go back to work and I keep thinking about how almost all my coworkers I knew are gone and processes have changed. Also that if I do something wrong I might injure myself again and be right back where I was a year ago (I have been cleared for full job duties by my doctor).
I have an appointment with a dentist to have some teeth pulled, and a chronic sinus infection needing surgery simultaneously. The antibiotics I’m on amplify the already massive anxiety I have to the point of paranoia and panic attacks.
I’m just some words a stranger left for you on the internet, but if it counts for anything at least one person from across the globe is thinking about you at this time and that is meant to sound reasurring like “you are not alone” but you mentioned paranoia and I probably just increased that I mean wtf dude a random stranger says “you are not alone” who could be from anywhere on Earth so now you’ve got this on your mind too great gee-wizz thanks I guess? Right? But then maybe it’ll take your mind off the real shit for a feaction of a second and make it worth it? I dunno I’m just an idiot overthinking things but that should be par for the course here. Um… good luck!
I’m so in my head that I barely know how to properly respond, but thank you for taking the time to reply.