So I’ve noticed a pattern in my life that I was hoping someone could empathize with.

I’ve been training for over a year for a physical test that I really want to pass. The other day I tried to do the exercises that I’ll have to do in the test and I completed all of them successfully and now I feel that I’ve lost some of my motivation to get better. It’s as if I was trying to prove that I could do it and I feel that I have, although I really haven’t since I haven’t taken the test. I’ve noticed this before. A couple years ago I tried really hard to get into a prestigious degree in a reputable university through my own merit. I managed to get in and soon after I lost interest and quit. Has anyone experienced something like this before?

Thank you for your time :)

Ps.: I’m not sure this is related to ADHD, I just figured it might be and the people here might be able to advise me.

  • @ChocoboRocket
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    7 months ago

    I totally feel this.

    So many videogames I enjoyed just ended before last boss

    Decent job with lots of down time, and I desperately want to want to learn more things and give myself potential for career advancement and some job flexibility. Like I really want to be able to do it, but I just can’t bring myself to start because I don’t need to, even though I like learning new things.

    Even when I complete a home project, or accomplish a life goal, it’s just kind of… Meh? Well that’s done I guess?

    There’s also a constant battle of feeling anxious in most social settings, but feeling guilty/lonely without them. Almost like juggling two things you don’t particularly like, trying to find the balance where you’re least mentally uncomfortable.

    It’s great having videogames, but you can only do something so much before everything starts to feel formulaic and unfulfilling.

    There is always a feeling or sensation that I should/could be doing something else unless I’m hyper fixated on something