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I am 5.5 weeks on HRT now and recently noticed some different feeling tissue underneath my nipples that are definitely the beginning of my breast buds. So I’m beyond happy currently 😊
At the same time I remembered how worried I was prior to starting HRT (though I never hesitated to get closer to HRT and eventually start it) because I always thought about what if I don’t like any of the changes of HRT especially the permanent ones but now I can only laugh about that because I definitely like those changes very much 😂
Haha I had the same worries pre-hrt and now, seven months in, the changes just keep getting better! Hopefully your experience is as positive as mine has been!
Started going to a psychologist, it’s needed before HRT in my country. That makes me happy because I’m finally making some progress, if everything goes well I’ll start HRT next year. One bad thing is that I have harder time falling asleep now because of dysphoria.
God I hate medical gatekeeping. Good luck to you
Someone stole my progress flag :) So that’s nice.
I’m trying out a different route of hrt, sublingual rather than gel. It’s way more precise, but I’m having issues suppressing my T. So just trying stuff out until it works i guess.
I choose to imagine you in a month or two, thousands of dollars into a GoFundMe or such, whole-ass city around you mysteriously a forest of progress flags but you’re struggling to keep one up 😅
(Turns out critters are stealing the flags not to get rid of them but to have their own, which is funny somehow!) :D
Finally getting over a nasty sinus infection. That screwed over my whole last week. Thrilled to be standing/moving around and have enough energy to do more than sit and stare at a screen.
Making bread to make sandwiches (a couple loaves of honey oatmeal and a loaf of rye)
Going back to work tomorrow but at least pretty well rested. Was getting sick and tired of being… sick and tired.
…Okay you’re sharing this bread, yes? :3 . 🫴
Of course!
rips honey oatmeal loaf in half
I ain’t sharing the rye tho
Omnomnomnomnom .🎵 swipes bit of rye nomnomnomnom .🎶 Thankies 😅
Rar? Eugh, feels today. Also head kinda still messed from yesterday (see thing). Hmmmm lessee.
So, feels. Emotional 🧠y strugglifications are happening in various ways. Not sure I’m capable of really bonding or feeling belongy or anysuch :-\ Having weird feels about where I’m at in life (also see thing <.<;) aaand Idunno even what else. Had a lil sad about the kitty we were kittysitting for like a day having to go back with his “owner” :| Clearly the lil grey fluff belongs here on my bed :3 … Where he did actually stay pretty much the whole time he wasn’t either chewing up my electronics cablestuffs or fighting/playing with the other lil ones. What a sweet lil fuff :3
thing
So it turns out it’s possible to trip on weed if you manage to use too much and also apparently I became a lightweight (regarding everything??) overnight before yesterday. Ask me how I kno- just kidding I know because I got knocked into a trip from one lil gummy and maybe a couple lil dabs <.< :| This was a very weird experience (my first trip! Woooo I guess 😅 ) that’s kinda been on my mind 😅 Anyway one thing it did was put me through a bunch of different perspectives and I saw myself as a previous self and was… disgusted, afraid, alone, felt like I was lost far from home 😅 Rough, weird, unpleasant… so that BS is clattering around mucking up 🧠 as if the poor thing weren’t already kindof a mouldy puddle of sludge or something.
^ So that experience was a whole bundle of strange and I wanna talk about it but I don’t even know what to say 😅
Also cops stopped somecritter right out front of this place, just now :| Bleeeh!
Edit: Oh, and I’m starting to not want to be referred to as fem. Like sometimes it’s actually irritating to be called a good girl, I kinda just "But am not girl <.<; :-" So this is awkward. fidgetywobble I’d blame 🧠 flaking out (especially after thing 😅 ) but it’s kinda been getting worse for a while. I may be… gasp sniffle et cetera, shock and surprise and darkest genderhorror…!!! … !!! A full enby?!? … That or my brain’s just fuckin’ melted. I dunno.
[Weird rambling or something?] Anway don’t tell Josh, maybe he’ll feel awkward or something. Also hi Josh ö/ 😅 😹 So yeah. Development of my me maybe? wiggles confusily Ooooh, there’s a cute fluffy kitty! Not Soot, though, the supercuddles were taken away. I will never forgive that person for taking their cat back 😅 MJ’s being sweet, though, so that’s nice . petpets fluffbucket 🫳🐈
We literally had the same weekend wtf! I had my first trip friday and had migraines yesterday - due to weather changes i think though.
Whee! 😅 I hope yours was fun. Mine was not 😅 Migraines almost never fun so I hope those went away quick.
Mine was pretty fun, I had a very intimate relationship with a mcdonalds apple pie. McDonalds also sells plastic bags with a cut apple inside and someone had previously ordered one of those instead of the apple pie, because in german they’re almost the exact same word. I laughed for several hours at the thought that somewhere in the world somebody is cutting these apples and putting them in little plastic bags - that just seemed completely insane to me. But then when we got back to the house the party was had I thought I had lost my phone and searched the entire path we had taken from the macdonalds and back. I found it at the place we were partying after I got back but not before having emotional breakdowns the entire way to the mcdonalds and back because money is kinda tight rn and I really didn’t want to have to buy a new phone
A random person walked up to me, made a Transphobic “joke”, and then got pissed when I didn’t find it funny.
Pretty good for now, I went to a laser game with friends and that was fun!
Today at the store the lady in charge of surveying the self checkout sir’d me really hard, which is always a pleasure (🙄)
Oh well I’m checking my levels tomorrow I think my T is slightly up so I might get to go on decapeptyl.
