My dear peeps, I reclaim the daily posting, thank you Rosamundi for the break. I pledged for today Friday and I failed. Was almost to two years July 8th. We are not perfect. I tell everyone it’s about the journey and count your successes, not the flat tire/ speed bump in the journey. Know I am not infallible. I’m not sure if that is a positive or a negative today. But I want to be honest. I’ve had a few days of cryptic posting because I was not strong… horrible words… It was my last day off… and I succumbed. I should have reached out. One more day. I couldn’t. My kid had a sleepover tonight and a private night. The inner voice won. But it’s ok. The spiritual part of me tells myself everything happens for a reason. 🧐

I am still a part of this daily journey, today/ tonight more so than ever. I feel awful (physically). What timing. My schedule has been off, so I will be posting closer to new date line for now as it suits my schedule a little. We also have a member in New Zealand who struggling with us and while he does not post here frequently, we are in touch DM monthly’ish at minimum the past year but I’m hoping he sees this today. Thanks for the rant. Not meant to be a pity party, I need to be human today. I think I’m on my 15th edit and feel good enough to indulge in some cheesecake. See you all in 24 hours. 😘

  • SpaceBar
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    425 days ago

    Sober day. Another day.

  • rosamundiM
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    426 days ago

    I will not drink with you today!

    Hugs to you Zerlyna, and thank you for your honesty.

  • @CheesyGordita
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    425 days ago

    Hey! It’s good to have you back posting and I appreciate your openness and willingness to share and be vulnerable. I’m proud of you! I have disappeared for a week or two at a time when falling off the wagon and have almost not come back at all. You came right back and owned it! That’s kick ass!

    I will not drink with you today!

  • @[email protected]
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    324 days ago

    I haven’t posted in a few, but I’m still going strong.

    Sorry to hear what happened, but one mistake isn’t going to diminish the near two years. Just get back up and keep going, it’ll work out!