Look… I don’t feel like shit when I get nothing done because I’ve been brainwashed by the ruling class to tie my self-worth to my usefulness as a slave.
I feel like shit because I have this reservoir of energy that slowly builds up throughout the day, to the point where—if I don’t start draining it by doing stuff that requires spoons—I will lie awake at night wondering why I can’t get to sleep, extending it into a viscious circle where i’ll feel too tired to do anything the next day but still end up laying awake at night too energized to sleep
Yeah, I think this is an important thing to be aware of. I 100% get and understand the need to reinforce self-worth outside of what’s traditionally pushed. But that’s not the whole story, and I don’t see much on the other side of it.
It’s when you get that anxiety/depression cocktail alongside things, unable to find the motivation to do the things you need to do to feel adequately drained, or unable to do the things that adequately energize.
It’s when you fall flat and feel horrible, not because of a corporate agenda, but because real people depended on you and you couldn’t show up.
It’s when you took the advice, and followed your rhythms of the day, and stopped going against your mental grain… and then you missed your work deadline, or messed up your work and screwed someone over, or accidentally estranged family members, or didn’t get that medical treatment you needed.
It’s really important people don’t tie up in the self-worth of productivity and corporations - it’s really easy to prioritize those because we’re told all of our lives that they’re worth prioritizing - and that leads to us ignoring our own needs… But unless you’re very fortunate, work and productivity are needs, and finding ways to exert energy in a healthy (and often relaxing!) way is important.
I don’t know where I’m going with this.
Well in my case I try to work on personal projects , a code / podcast or write a book and then forget about them for months open them again , feel overwhelmed and then close them without work !
This one is just
for me it was this oneI missed this one. I love how widely relatable all his stuff is. Sure it’s specifically about the ADHD but I imagine just about anyone alive in this age can relate to a ton of these comics.
This happens with me with texts too , I get too anxious to reply to texts to people and then ignore them for weeks if not months ! Need to find the strngth to text them back. Social life is shit coz of that !!
I feel like shit because my partner ends up in tears saying how they cant trust me with anything that is time sensitive or that has fiscal risk. My self worth is not a problem, I just want to be able to maintain a normal job, and be a normal supportive partner.
